kept in hospital on the 15th of feb 2010 after a check-up, i was hooked up to a machine to keep an eye on my babys movement, i was on this all through the nite, then had my labour started in the early hours of tues morning after a few hours i was took for a c-section, i was scared but excited about meeting my baby for the first time i couldnt wait to see him and to hold him in my arms, finally he was born @ 9;57 on tuesday morning 16th feb 2010 weighing 6lbs 3ozs in the ulster hospital, he was took straight to the neo-nataul unit while i was took to the recovery ward. it was only then that i was told he had congenetial heart diease and that he had to be took to the intestive care unit @ the r.v.h for sick children and i would be transferred the next day, it was a huge shock to hear this as nothing was picked up in my scans. i just kept praying that my baby would be alright. he was hooked up to alot machines it broke my heart to see him like that id of done anything to take his place, i felt so helpless that i couldnt do anything to help him, after 3 very long long days me and his daddy were told there was 4 different things wrong with his heart and there was nothing else thet could do for him, hearing those words was so hard, switching the machines of was the most hardest thing ive had to do in my life and knowing that he was passing away was heartbreaking. i finally got to hold him for the first time, the love i felt for him was overwhelming. i sat and cuddled him and cried for wat felt like a lifetime as he was slipping away in my arms, after an hour he took his last breath, cant believe he is gone, hurts so so much knowing that im never going to hold and cuddle my baby again or watch him grow... how i wish i could of took his place, i would of done anything to be in his place too gave him a chance at life, now we all face a life without our we angel.... my heart is broken in two il never be the same again but i know that my little angel is up there playing with all the other little angels, and that he is the brightest most sparkling star shining bright in the sky watching over us all.